man is the only animal that blushes.. or needs to
i'm laying in my room... with my laptop. :) finally, i don't have to scramble around to finish my online homework/studying/whatever. it only costs me like $600 - and it's pretty nice. maybe next time my financial aid comes in, i'll be a risky (or compulsive) fool and buy my very first car?

i'm going to admit that today was a drag. i bought 2 pairs of shoes, a hoodie for january and february, a book of dali paintings, and a shirt, but i still didn't feel 100 percent. i have to stop freaking myself out about life after death and the world in general. i feel better right now, under a blanket luke left here. i've been forgetting lately how wonderful life is. worrying and wondering about what happens next isn't going to help me arrive at any conclusion because it's impossible. so tonight marks the night that i stop looking so much forward and just relax and laugh and love and learn and make my life experience amazing.. because being a human is pretty cool.